Adored. ♥

Thursday, December 31, 2009'♥

1 year and 7 months

doesn't seem like a very long time to me.. seems more like the older i get, time variations just get longer and longer..

but nevertheless, i can't believe it's going to be 2 years so soon.. i can still remember clearly how it started out, and it's quite stupid really, but amusing.. haha

our relationship has been such a blur of drama and activities.. so much to put into my puny little brain!

every arguement, unhappiness, craziness, the joys, holidays, getaways, wow.. all within 1 years and 7 months..

I am so glad i have all these memories, both good and bad, to share with you.. although i know that some are not pleasant, but they've shaped who we are.. changed so much of what we used to be..they signify the turbulances that we went through together..

and i just want you to know that i will never want to stop going through things with u.. i will always want to continue sharing everything that i can with u.. grow with u.. tell u everyday that i love you..

because meeting you has been one of the bestest thing to happen to me, and i love you so much for the things you've given me and beared with..

so a kudos to the end of this year and our 19 months together!

i love you, and i will love you always..

Always yours

Gratitude.2:35 AM

Monday, December 28, 2009'♥

the long xmas weekend

was great! *smiles*

we spent xmas eve with his family, having steamboat and beers.

and then just the two of us, waiting for xmas hour to come.

xmas day was spent with my family! there was turkey, ham, roast beef, cackling pork, macaroni, salad, bread and soup, yummy yummy yummy~

after that all the kids had a ball of a time unwrapping presents handed out from under the xmas tree. hah! especially nat nat, he laughed at like the silliest thing of tearing the wrapping paper. so amusing. ^.^

i just love the way people open presents and see that they've got something they wanted. who doesn't like presents!

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my sweetheart has been so happy and sweet. =)

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Another long weekend's coming up!!

and we'll be having our first trip for the year 2010!!

darling just booked a super cheap room at Cameron for us n my family for 1 Jan. hee.

I can't wait to go back there again. my only memories from that place was that of a child, and my sis had her hand on top of a cactus plant. that freaked me out. oh n we had dinner at this nice cosy western cottage, with fabulous meat and the adults drank red wine.

so i really am excited to go again especially with my darling to share the experience with me this time. and my dad there to capture all our memories. =)

i can't wait i can't wait!!

bye 2009! HELLO 2010!!!

Gratitude.3:26 PM

Wednesday, December 23, 2009'♥

nightmare

because of my own paranoia, i gave myself a nightmare.

i woke up with so much terror in my heart, i had to do something to convince myself it wouldn't really be like how my nightmare played out.

and i'm glad it wasn't.

but i think my darling must be thinking i'm crazy, and blaming me for checking on him. can't say i don't deserve it. and i'm so sorry i did. but i was so scared. and i didn't know what to do or how to make sense out of it.

i think i'm just senseless when it comes to matters of the heart. i go blind.

i don't really logic-alise the things i do.. just do.. just because i love you so..

i can't afford to lose you now.. not in the way i had dreamt..

i hope darling won't blame me for what i did.. sigh..

can't sleep in peace anymore..

Gratitude.10:02 AM

Tuesday, December 22, 2009'♥

xmas is coming~

went out almost everyday, and enjoying it!

last thursday and friday were pretty fruitful. Thursday was project meeting with Julian and we did quite abit. So that was good.

Friday was Isetan sales and mummy was with me. We did some shopping and i managed to find my present for darling. Although i had to carry a whole bunch of shopping with me to plaza sing, then to vivo.

Plaza sing's Daiso is so small and cramp. that's why i had to go to vivo's just to find the photoframe i wanted. It was so tiring, but worth it since darling likes my present. hee. now he'll have something in his office to remind him of me. =D

i think i should walk more. >.<

been going to loyang to wait for honey to end work too. and that's nice as well. i like the process of going to his workplace and then seeing him after a day of waiting for him. =)

and i've got all my presents~ i can't wait for christmas!!! it's going to be our first full christmas together. (right?) can't rem, but i think it is. hahahaha. we've got it all planned anyway.

as long as he's with me, it'll be perfect.

*smiles*

Gratitude.7:07 PM

Thursday, December 17, 2009'♥

occupying my time

went to meet family at bugis today, but they ended up watching a last min show, leaving me to walk around myself..

managed to buy my xmas presents and wrapping paper..

still had time so i went to yakun, sat down and had my tea and eggs while reading my comic..

i thought their show would have ended by 5.30, but it did not so i decided to go off on my own..so it wasn't really much family time at all..

more like a 'me' time..

so i rounded off my day by going all the way to loyang to wait for my sweetheart to finish work..

and it was the first time i did so.. i found it quite exciting actually.. almost like a teenager again..hehe

well, dear used to go uob and wait for me to end work, so this time its my turn.. maybe the next few times if i go out, i can go and wait for him..

i think its sweet.. does my darling think its sweet?

=)

Gratitude.1:12 AM

Monday, December 14, 2009'♥

my sweetie

miss u so...

i've deleted everything else..bcox i want only u..

trying for lesser negativity and more happy happy.. for you..

i wish there was more i could do..

Gratitude.2:46 PM